Thursday, January 5, 2012

A 1 - Allowing myself to be happy

1-6-2012
I was raised in a Catholic home, went to their schools and through all the classes necessary to be a good catholic.  Then I went to a public school for the 7th grade and found out that not everyone lived like I was having too.  I checked out MANY other religions and never found exactly what I was needing.  Finally, one day I was walking through Books A Million and it seemed like a book just pulled me into an aisle and called to me.  I picked it up and just had to buy it.  It was a book about Paganism.
I read the book and sensed that I had found what I was searching for.
I finally got into counseling and found out a lot about myself, and that I was preventing myself to be happy.  I was always stopping myself when my goals were close.  I think this is because of the rigid rules of the other religions I had tried.
After meeting my Goddess and getting to know several of them I suddenly started to feel better and not as closed in to myself.  She has helped me break down some of the walls I had built, and allows me to finally FEEL things. 
I am now happier than I have ever been in my entire life and it is because I am allowing myself to finally be happy.

This may not be exactly what you wanted in a blog, but it is something that came to me and I couldn't push it away ... so I wrote about it.

Blessed Be

12 comments:

  1. I think this IS what blogging is about... allowing yourself ;)
    thank you. BB

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  2. It was a book that allowed me to find myself as well. I grew up in a Protestant/Baptist family, but never identified as Christian. One day, my 10-year-old self stumbled upon a Wiccan book and I bought it with my allowance. It's been a ride that's open many doors. Blessings. ~)O(~

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  3. I loved your post! I actually got kicked out of Catholic school in 8th grade. I'm glad you were able to find a path that resonated with you!

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  4. This is exactly what I wanted to read in a blog, someone saying what they need to say! I have been in that exact mind frame for so long and maybe now I can move on from those old paths to find a better one. Thanks for your post!

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  5. Truth telling - Christianity is the foundation of who I am - but it isn't the whole picture and didn't work as it was presented to me either. I read in one of my many books and this quote rang to my heart - ..."that creativity and uniqueness are two key elements to any form of Occult success... the world of magic has no tolerance for conformity." Monroe the 21 lessons of Merlyn. I believe each person needs to find and create their own path. For me I need to honor the past and create my own truth and lead a happy life that makes the world a better place. Love your post and thanks for the honesty.

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  6. If this is what you needed to write, then you needed to write it. Don't be so worried about conforming to what everyone else is expecting to get out of the PBP. I think this was great, and I urge you to continue writing what you need to write.

    Kourtney
    http://paganpagesbloghop.blogspot.com/

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  7. There is no right or wrong to blogging. This is your space to say what you need to say. I think your post is wonderful and heartfelt.

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  8. Never appologise for expressing the Goddess within yourself sweetie, and what you blogged about, was wonderful and uplifting. I am so happy that you so content and happy with life since the Goddess has been working with you more closely. Beautiful <3

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  9. I think you've just done fine...it's your blog so you can express yourself as you feel the need to. Great start!
    Blessings
    Deep~Glade

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  10. Well said dear, well said. This is exactly what you needed to write about. Write from the heart, and you can never go wrong.

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  11. You did perfect!! The best way to connect with the Goddess in you, is to allow yourself to be happy, to be you. Allowing is the key for magic in our lifes.

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  12. Very nice post. Allowing you to be you is huge! Thank you for writing on this topic.

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